Friday, December 3

Life Update the 1st edition

huehehehe here's my life update since I haven't post in a while now...

1. holiday
2. ill-week

1st Phase - Holiday
now...
my holiday was nice... I get to hang out with cebonk and keonk my ol' high-school buddies (actually cebonk is my pal since junior-high and keong since elementary) and we've been together for.. almost 7 years now... we hang around a lot... often seen together... although both of them has a basketball hobby and I have this huge hobby of playing games... but we went along quite well... never had a fight (as long as I remember) even though we often punch, kick, slam each other asses HAHAHAHAHA! but yes this is the my happy truth of friendship... they have been true to me as I to them... a lot has happened in these two years... people change... but the strange thing is... it still felt like high-school... but that was the nice part right... maybe something is best left unchanged... remain the same... cause the memories were what made me the way I am now...

the other part of my holiday was my family... which I realize we never actually get together for almost 5 years (my 1st bro is studying at different city, my 2nd bro is already married and have a son back then) yes... 5 years ago... the house would be me and my mother... we have 4 rooms and 2 people living in it... it was right when I graduate from Junior high - well.. the thing about me is I grew up being told not to be like my brothers... both of them (7 and 5 years older than me) have failed some of their study... so I had to concentrate on my study again and again... until the peak was at my junior high when I... all of a sudden feel that I need to be myself now (I guess that is the part where a boy become a pain-in-the-ass boy for his parents) then I dropped my achievement in school (it was from the 3rd of 40 students and become the 12th of 40 students) then in high school it's getting worse (I remember the worst one was the 14th of 37 students) and I barely made it to the final grade which was my Language programme of the 3rd year (79 total points from the minimum 78). then everything that I lost was coming back - my 2nd bro now moved at the backyard of my house (my house is quite big) and my 3rd bro stopped studying because he didn't feel like it anymore (WOW don't talk about this one... it hurts me) and it was then things were awfully awkward... everyone is coming back to the house... this is one of the reason that I left home... I didn't really want to come to Holland in the first place... I just want to run away for a while...and now the runaway is over... I came back home... and I suddenly felt what I have never felt before in my family life... A real Family! I just forget where did I drop this feeling... but this holiday... this 6 days... I really feel that we are a family... and it was a nice feeling I could not explain... maybe because the past two months I was living alone in Jakarta... or the past two years I never see them and I actually missed them... but I just know that there was something more... something... cherishable and so pure... even though my dad was still the same egoistic and selfish bastard (yes he's a bastard but he's my dad... can't complain) but now that I have my mom, my brothers with their wives and children... it's become a bit merrier... the house did not feel as empty as I remember... maybe that what made me feel that this is a real family... the family I had hoped for... and the family that I love the most - as referring to Nia's post :p

so the conclusion of my holiday is... the only holiday when I felt that I had a family and I love them... and I still have my two bestfriends around me whether they are different or the same... we do have each other :)

2nd Phase - Ill-week

I'd cut the story short...
since I cameback to Jakarta in friday... I had been living in desperation, still missing my family back home... and I just watched TV, play game again...
so I came to work at monday, and tuesday... but that tuesday it was raining when I came out to buy some food and the next morning I got a flu and a cough... later at noon, I feel better and thinking of coming to work... but I had a stomachache... (don't want to explain it) and at night... a strong headache at the back of my head... force me not to move for like 1 whole hour and just listening to my new Utada Hikaru's album Exodus. and so I went to sleep...
the next morning... I still had the f**kin headache (sorry) and it just pains me to sit still without doing nothing or anyone talking to me... so I force myself to get out... it failed... I cannot barely move... and my kidney feel strange... but I ignored it cause the headache was awesome (yeah AWESOME INDEED)... and the pain was going away slowly... I get to play my new MGS3: Snake Eater too... which then why I forgot to tell the office that I was sick... :p my bad habit...
and Friday... I have to go to work today! I have to! and then when I stand up... my kidney hurts... it hurts like it was about to break... and then I remember... oh I barely eat or drink anything yesterday... so I tried my best to get up and take some drinks... and then when my kidney felt better I took a bath and I went to grab something to eat... PHEW... so things were going better at least... UH OH! no way... the stomachache returns! maybe he was laughing while saying (HAHAHAHA EAT THAT SH*T! - again sorry) and my 3rd day of sickening bastard was over while I watch TV till asleep... then Saturday - a free day - things are getting better except for my kidney that hurts everytime I stood... but the day was alright... and so did Sunday and I could come to work at Monday cause I didn't feel anything in the morning... so I guessed that's it... I get to work again! and then I feel normal again... people around working while I read some papers and books... la la la la...

HUH! after I had my lunch... the kidney felt strange again... and then OUCH! it came back! OMG!!! when will this pain end!!! and I had no choice but to call my mom and asked what medicine I should take... and bla bla so after work I get to grab some medicine at the local drugstore and then I drink it with some vitamins so I can sleep better... and then I slept...

the tuesday was tough... the kidney hurts more than ever... now I cannot even stand up... so it just went with all the pain of the day and moving was hard until later at night...

and phew the next morning I feel great... and I get to work... and I did not feel any pain the whole day... phew... thanks God!

and the week was awful... the pain ... just unbearable... not as hurt as being stabbed by nazgul tho :p

and so it ends...